2024-06-19 - [3.2] Energy

The Person-Egg is sure it is missing some vital Input to guide its Understanding. That’s the only explanation for both the dips in connectivity to the world, for why it seems to keep Recognising things are happening only in the middle of a conversation despite always being aware People exist around it, and for why the Warm-Mother would, would…

Each time the Person-Egg hears-feels the name Pertemarth it shrinks and shakes, egg trying to disappear under the sands it’s never seen. Visible marks in the world outside the shell’s confines it only abstractly knows it is causing.

The protection-anger-reassurance makes sense to it. There is a purpose behind the nurturing, to bring forth the many little groups of current and sparks that make up the minds around the Person-Egg in the dark. There is a purpose to the reassurance of the curious-alien-odd mind, to continue and maintain a mutual relationship and exchange of information, the Person-Egg is unwillingly learning. The emotions-words-messaging results in a specific goal. But this Experience Warm-Something shares with the Pertemarth?

This is only Emotion.

Is it self soothing? Is it relationship building in a new way? Is this to guide? The Person-Egg runs itself ragged trying to understand, mind swelling out and in and out, energy coursing along the positive-negative path it has decided is the way to understand the world…No sensible Understanding comes to it and it retreats from the mental presence of the Pertemarth whenever it comes near.